Vocal Discorder

Took the usual Quizilla on WHICH CREATION RECORD ARE YOU and bam! I am SLOWDIVE. One of the bands in my previous post I had said I wish I could time travel to hear them LIVE.................

Too bad the quiz did not have EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY cos they are not of the Creation label. If they had then I am sure I would have scored that.....................

Since catching and experiencing EITS' powerful & intense performance in Sydney and Melbourne back to back, I must say my life has never been the same again in the way how music has always touched me.......



You Are... Slowdive.

You are very comfortable with the person that you are. You are pretty traditional in a classical sort of way. You relate most to things of a darker, more mysterious nature. You tend to be quiet and shy but you still manage to make friends pretty easilly. Though your ambition is bigger than your talents, your perseverance will always lead you to bigger and greater things. 

hmmmnnn .............. Partly true partly disputable hahah but yes my ambition is definitely more than the talents i possessed............. looks like i just have to keep staying determined to get to where i wanna be and hopefully its indeed a betta place.....................

its been a while as I try to pen down my thoughts into words. words that clearly expresses the state of emotions that flows through me. its really hard because what i wish to express can never be translated into words. the myraid of emotions can only be felt and it can only be felt by those that were with me at that point of time.

it is these unspoken words of emotions that connects us which others may never understand. not even those we hold dear.

yes i am back! back from the 3 weeks vacation, back from watching and experiencing Explosions In The Sky back to back in Sydney followed by Melbourne. back to this place we call home, reality, blah blah blah................

Bands and Artistes I have Caught:

1. Portishead - Check
2. Snow Patrol - Check
3. The Police - Check
4. Oasis - Check
5. Depeche Mode - Check
6. Broken Social Scene - Check 
7. Metallica - Check
8. Underworld - Check
9. Explosions In The Sky - Check Check
10. Mogwai - Check Check
11. Smashing Pumpkins - Check Check
12. Suede or The London Suede - Check 
13. Album Leaf - Check
14. Kings of Convenience - Check 

Bands and Artistes that I wanna catch before I am 40:

1. Madonna
2. Kylie
3. U2
4. Radiohead (hopefully in Japan)
5. Bloc Party
6. Interpol
7. Sigur Ros (hopefully in Iceland)
8. Morrisey
9. Mew
10. Pixes 
11. Jesus and The Mary Chain
12. Feist
13. Slowdive (if i could ever time travel!)

Since birth, my inclination towards music has been unwavering. Dominated by the everlasting episodes of music shows on the google box such as American Bandstand, Solid Gold, Sky Trax, Top of The Pops all way before MTV blasted onto the screen. 

Shaped by the Top 40s, New Wave, Brit Pop of the 80s (Stock, Aitken, Waterman and beyond) through to the early 90s when rock, metal, grunge and indie gave me a lustful tastes of the ever expanding and ever changing soundscapes our ears could experienced as long as we keep our minds open. 

Carried on to the mid 90s of Belaric house, psy trance and old skool trance of the MFS tip. Balanced by the techno,  trance, progressive house, electronica of the late 90s to early 2000s. Refined by the club house, tech house, prog house, prog breaks and now minimal, IDM from the 2000s till the present.

Still I have not forgotten where it all began and the band scene intrigues me

My life and emotions have been shaped and regulated by music throughout. Never for once have I ever gone without it. Silence may be golden but a life without music is a life with no soul. Without soul, we will lose the way. The way to feel, the way to think, the way to let our mind and body GO............................

The year of the Earth Rat is a high-energy time for exuberant Tigers. Your social calendar will be busy. It is especially fortunate for travel and expanding your horizons. New friends bring exciting new possibilities. Romantic dreams can come true. With so much going on, be cautious about jumping into something without careful consideration. It is important to carefully review any legal agreement. Ask the advice of down to earth people you trust before investing or making a major change. Wise Tigers will make time to review their finances and set up sensible plans for a secure retirement. Hard work and attention to details bring lasting rewards. 

enuff said................ looks like a busy year ahead and more slogging and hard work to go..............

thank god i am taking a 2 weeks break in less than a week to enjoy my EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY and seek inspiration cum rejuvenation.

Watched another beautifully crafted and under-rated movie called AROUND THE BEND on DVD. It stars the ever stylo CHRISTOPHER WALKEN, boyish JOSH LUCAS, supported by classic MICHAEL CAINE and a cute little child actor JONAH BOBO.

Tight storyline about family ties and forgiveness based on a roadtrip planned by the patriach - Michael Caine in his will and it was his last wish for the remaining 3 generations of the LAIRS (thats their family name) to come on what he called "OUR LAST DIG" which is basically coming one  full circle digging up the past and burying it with FORGIVENESS.

It clearly made me wonder if that will happen to me. Whether I can ever forgive my father, my bro, my mum. I know we do not choose our blood, I know we have to accept them for who they are.

However, in this transient life that I live, I reall do not have a clue if this is what I was meant to be. I try not to hate, I try not to rage but the demons in me will not be vanquished. 

Will I ever find peace within, will I ever live to savour that calmness. In the next few years it will be all the more clearer as I raced this final lap to cut off the final ball and chain. 

I am trying to find the VOICE and the STRENGTH to summon enough COURAGE to no longer COWER in HIS presence. If ever he was a royalty, I would be the weakest link in his bloodline. 

I need to stand tall in face of the onslaught, I need to dig in and stand my ground as it is the only sacred plot of my sanity................. 

Life is never beautiful! You are a fool if you believe in that!

However, we are the Painters that determine the picture we see on the canvas. We hold the brushes and we choose the colour palette. 

Who is to decide if its a black & white or a rainbow-infused picture that we see? Is it 2D, 3D or maybe even a 4th dimension? 

It is up to us how perceptive we want to be.................

Some people go through life living it simply, finding easy contentment. Others strive and live a high life filled with excitement, constantly pushing the edge.

Who would you rather be? 

As we all contemplate this question, l shall "PAINT" this picture I took while "chasing the clouds" for the right moment to get this wicked snapshot across the street from the Juan Miro Fundacio in Barcelona. 

It was a funky set of clouds and i like how the roof sculpture of the Fundacio wriggle like vines to tip the clouds.

That was how perceptive I was that morning......................

After being lax for the few weeks of my return. I finally flicked back on the "WORK" switch of my body clock and was grinding from Thursday to Saturday. Tomorrow will be the final day of this assignment and I am very grateful that the clients were easy going young Americans which helped a lot in this transition stage of my life.

I could feel the end of this career path is near and have begun researching for Masters that I can take but so far it has been severely lacking in terms of curriculum that matches my interests. Neverthless, I perserve and tell myself that I really need to do this..............

One of the side projects to prepare myself for the life of a "poor" student is that I have managed to keep to the S$50 a week meal challenge for the past 2 weeks based on my working schedule. The S$50 is meant to cover morning tea, lunch and afternoon tea. 

Dinner is and always will be an extravagant indulgence as it is the meal that one seeks comfort food to make up for a bad day or to reward for a good fruitful day. 

To top it off, I reckon I should continue with noting down each day on the 3 things I am grateful for. It seems indeed that the level of an individual's contentment is key to one's perceived ideal of HAPPINESS.

More to come.........................................

KAI

Its been 1 week since I got back to SIN from Spain. Going to Europe for the very 1st time to such a cultural city has indeed enriched me spiritually.

After putting it off for such a long time, I have decided to get on the band wagon of Live Journal and imprint these memoirs of my latter years for me to look back some day down the long white road.

O